Letter to my father
From thousands of miles away, I greet you, my Father. I would like to take this opportunity to write the things which I have been hiding in my heart from you for a long time, my dear Father. The relationship became very distant between us since I was kicked out from middle school. I didn't share anything with you even though I should have. I hated you very much because you didn't let me join a high school, although you could have done it easily for me. I kept a long distance between you and me and I gave you the cold shoulder, as if I actually disliked you. I hated that you made me do farm-work for one year, and that you wanted to send me to India for your own reasons. I thought you didn't love your only son, me, at all. But after I came to India, I realized all of the things you have done for me. I deeply regret that I misunderstood you. You love your only son a lot. You wanted to support your only son to become a good person.
My dear father, how can I apologize for misunderstanding you? I understand why you didn't help me to join a high school. Instead of that, you let me experience farm-work for one year, because you wanted your only son to know the hardship of working in a field, so that I would be reminded that studying is easier. You sent me to India to study, not because you didn't have any money to pay my school fees in a high school, but because you really wanted your only son to get some true knowledge and be a real, educated
man. Moreover, you didn't want your only son to ignore his own language, traditions, religion and issues like you did. But as your only son, I misunderstood you and hated you. I hope you can forgive your immature son for not realizing this sooner.
Dear Father, time has passed in a flash; you and I haven't seen each other for more than two years. My Father, do you know, the thing which hurt you deeply is always en¬graved on my heart? You were proud of me when I was a child; you were full of hope for me. You used to say, “My son is very smart and intelligent," to everyone that you knew, and you usually did tell me that you believed in me no matter what I did. I saw a happy smile that I had never seen before appear on your face when I was admitted to the best local middle school. You were so excited! It seemed as if you would go to the school. But, my dear Father, you didn't know what kind of person I had become after I joined the middle school. Your only son, who you believed in the most, started to lie to you. Your only son wasn't interested in studying anymore. You gave me money when I asked you and you never cared about how much I took. You just gave me three simple words, but the words made me ashamed: "Father trusts you." Day by day, month by month, your only son, who you trusted, was finally kicked out from the school.
At that moment, my dear Father, for the first time, because you usually don't show strong emotion, I saw helpless and hopeless tears fall down from your bright eyes. Your heart felt pain, as if someone used a knife to cut into a wound that was still new and open on your body. Your immature son couldn't see your pain and to your surprise, I kept the relationship so distant that you lacked the love you needed from your son. My Father, the only way I think that I can remedy my faults to you is to study as hard as I can, and to not disappoint you again.
My dear father, your only son, me, understands many things since I have been liv¬ing in an exile society. I dare not say I am totally changed, but I can tell you, I have changed a lot. Although I am longing for you and Mother each and everyday, I learnt how to face the difficulties of life without you and Mother's support. I know how to stand on my own feet.
Thank you, my dear father. You showed me a way, which is most important to me. I don't have the same conditions here that I had when I lived with you, but I am really happy to live here. I have found what you wanted me to find. Dear Father, you are the guide of my future life. Father, I love you more than anybody else. Your only son, me, can't say I will be a
well-known person, but I can promise I will be a useful and a good person. Dear Father, your only son longs for you all the time. I will forever remember that you told me to live simply but have high thinking. I am always grateful to you, my dear father.